Rest

I have felt so off beat this week. I have been really working on getting closer to God, improving my relationship with Him. But somehow I am starting to feel more and more disconnected from those around me. I know that we are supposed to be apart from this world, but I still feel as though we are supposed to enjoy the time we are given here. I am not sure if it is just me and I’m just having “one of those weeks” but this morning I was checking my twitter and Jeremy Camp (amazing artist and follower) quoted:


“Search me, O God, and know my heart. Try me and know my anxieties; see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. “Psalm 139:23-24

I always have such a hard time letting go of my burdens and just resting in God’s love. I am actually not even sure how to do it. It has been part of my prayers lately, that I would find rest in Him. I have always had such an active, and sadly enough, guilty mind. I can seem to find guilt in almost every situation. Guilt has been the devils foothold in my life for years. I am trying to learn how to forgive myself, because myself is the hardest person for me to forgive.

“Come to me and find rest.” That is my utmost desire. I don’t want to worry anymore, I don’t want to overanalyze. I just want to follow in His footsteps, hold his hand and know that I will be fine, no matter what may be in my path. I want peace in chaos, joy in struggles, and hope in turmoil.