Last night I really had an epiphany that I want to make some huge changes in my life. I was to be proud of myself and I want to follow the path that was set ahead for me. I have some bad habits that often get to me into trouble or make me feel regret or guilt later.
I am not going to drink anymore. I am not a heavy drinker, but at times it has gotten me into situations that I should never have been in. I have learned a lot about myself in the last few years and I just think that staying away from situations is easier than being in them and being tempted. Plus, it saves a ton of money. Both my husband and I have decided that it is not really worth our time and effort.
I am going to watch my tongue. I have a tendency to gossip, it is so easy to pass on those tidbits of entertainment, but gossip so easily hurts someone. And, I am going to watch what I say when I get upset. I blurt out hurtful words and it can easily get back to me, as well as, upset the relationship with the person I said the words about.
I really want to stick out. I want people to know that I am a Christian. I want my faith and my relationship with our Maker to rule my life. I want the fruit of the Spirit to be so evident in my life that I am a walking testimony without saying a word.
I have always had a hard time not blending into the crowd and acting like those around me. But, today, I am going to stand out. I am going to speak up when someone is doing something that is out of control instead of sinking into the background.
I have also started praying daily that God will give me His heart. I want so badly to understand His love. I want to see people through his eyes instead of being judgmental. I want to see someone hurting and ache with them, help them anyway I can. I want to make a difference in my own communities. I want my life to be worth something. Sometimes I have to wonder why I was put on this earth, going to work and back home everyday feels so monotonous. I feel like I am destined for something better, I know I am.
Who’s in?
I feel encouraged just reading your post! May God remind you of your goals as you go along each day so that you stay far away from those things! One prayer that has helped me over the last few years is to pray for people as it is hard to be judgemental and gossip about those you pray for and I know what you mean about feeling badly after you do so. Blessings!
ReplyDeleteThis is a really good list of things to work on. Like you, I've been praying that God will give me His heart. David asked for it so I feel led by his example. I hope God will replace my heart with His, because His heart is so much better!
ReplyDeleteI love the song that talks about us dancing to the beat of His heart.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and prayers of His protection over you as you step into the arena...in battle gear and strengthened by His might.