I feel so dumped on lately. So many things in my life have not gone the way I wanted them to…or at least the way I hoped. It has been hard to keep up good spirits when I constantly feel like I am getting beat down.
I am praying, hard, that something good will happen. I don’t see how I can last in such a negative environment for much longer. I cried in the car all the way home. Work is killing my soul and sanity. I feel so used and mistreated. There is constant rudeness, stress and negativity, not what I signed up for.
I know that God’s timing is a LOT different than ours, but at this point, I am hoping He has something in store for me. Little things have seemed to go wrong as well, just everything.
I need a weekend away from everything. I just need to recharge and figure out a plan. I really wish that we were born with blueprints. I am so confused and bewildered right now. I am not sure what direction God wants me to go.
Oh, Missie, I have certainly been there in the past. I will continue to pray but for a bit of natural common sense, which God also uses too, find the thing that brings you zeal and excitement. You know, that thing that makes you feel like a child. It may be something small, like cooking, decorating, a craft, photography, music, reading, or a combination...you know better than anyone. And let that spark your enthusiasm. Joy runs deeper, of course, but God DOES use the natural to spark it off at times. I know He does in my life.
ReplyDeleteYesterday I ran into a prayer I had written out over a year ago during a trying time. It was basically for God to give me the capacity to abide in His grace CONTINUOUSLY and CONSISTENTLY versus the ups and downs according to whatever the day brought. I don't know when it happened but it happened. My joy is now more consistent. Sure, I have blues every now and then, and I get tired too...it's human. But I can see a marked difference in the consistency. It's more midline and steady.
I will also continue praying that God gives you wisdom (the how) as to your job. Sometimes a season is over and we must move on. You will know. Much love your way.
I'm so sorry you feel that way. I know how it feels.. when bad things just continue to happen. The only thing I can say is that God is there and that he is in control. Is there anything you really enjoy that you can do to sort of forget about the bad things for a while? It actually helps to keep busy!
ReplyDeleteFeel free to visit my new forum for Christian women if you want. I just launched it but it'll be a place of fellowship and support, it's at http://www.bygrace.me. You're in my prayers and I hope things will be better soon.
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ReplyDeleteI know what you mean... I seem to feel a lot of that lately too. Just kind of lost. I'll be praying for you. Life is tough but God is still good. Satan must really be attacking you Missie. Look at how you are trying to grow. It is so discouraging. Don't let him win and keep your eyes upward.
Oh girl- I feel you! Last year I had a really hard time. I'll be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteHow are you getting on?
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and just stopping by to say hi. =D Love and blessings your way.
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