Changes

We found out yesterday that the city approved a housing complex in the empty lot behind our house. It was wonderful not having neighbors to the back and having a lot filled with beautiful trees. Now, it will be a two 2-plexes and a  3-plex. A row of garages would be backed up to our garage.

Then, when I got home last night my husband said the neighbors were putting up a privacy fence, which mean snow removal in our driveway was going to be much more difficult, and not free anymore. Our other neighbor would plow our snow into the empty area right next to our garage, which was owned by our neighbor. Although the land is rightfully theirs, it is a bit heartbreaking.

The two things I really loved about my house are changing. I normally am good with change, but this is starting to feel like a battle. I know that God has a purpose and that he is holding my life in his hands. I need to have faith that even with change, which is not personally against me even though I feel like I am being attacked. I know that the housing complex will allow others to enjoy our peaceful neighborhood and the fence will allow our neighbors dog to run freely in their yard, but I am really having a hard time resisting throwing myself on the ground and kicking my heels like a two year old.

There are going to be a lot of things in my life that come and there is no way to stop them. I have to learn how to deal with them as a Christian instead of letting the sinful nature in me want to retaliate, even though it is hard to stop those thoughts from entering my brain.

I pray that in these coming months and with the changes that are made, God allows me to see through his eyes. Maybe a new neighbor will need some extra encouragement and hope in their lives and I can share my faith with them. Maybe the fence will not separate us from our neighbors, but bring us closer to them somehow.